 Here I sit in the sun mulling over an incident from this morning. Why do I give this person space in my head and at that rent free? Why does it "bug" me to the core?
Why oh why do I allow myself to feel that way... I should and I do know better. It is because of the way this person made me feel... "attacked" my integrity and my knowledge. I am a Life Path #7... I do KNOW stuff, or am I just not wanting to be taught... maybe (smiles). Being sensitive to energies I feel between the lines and that's what ticking me off. Once the vibe or word is out there it will be hard to back pedal. I won’t allow it it’s all about justice (that #7 energy). Anyhow, today I decided to retreat before I ‘vibed’ something I might regret later. and now I am sitting here mulling it over.... (typical #7) Lucky I am aware....smiles....soooo for now I will sit in the sun, listening to my favourite Swiss Rock Band, cat by my feet and TRUST (as my Angel Card suggested this morning, that all is and will be well). Can't wait for July, the month which will bring justice and yes....my Life Path Number. I just have to remember that all is well... always. Love & Light Toni  It has been a week since our 7 month old kitten Daisy got out on a Sagittarian full moon... but, first let me go back to December 2016
2016 the ominous #9 year = endings of cycles. We nearly made it to the end with no major hiccups. until December, so close... December 2016 a week before Christmas our much loved family pet Mr. Hank passed away. A snake got him and all the anti-venom didn't help. Needless to say that it happened after hours! A trip to the emergency vet and 1000's of dollars later... but money wasn't important at the time (thank God for credit cards....). So, here we were cat-less for the first time in a long time. The house seemed empty, but we couldn't have another cat, just yet… until. Daisy a 5 week old kitten pounced into our family. A completely different personality to Mr Hank, cheeky yet loving, naughty yet funny. Yes you guessed it 3 am hanging between the blinds wake ups, 4 am bouncing on the bed wake-ups and then… the cuddles, the purrs, the love. We were in love. Shortly after, Doris, a 7 year old feline popped into our family, it looked like I was collecting cats! Shy at first, Doris settled into the family dynamic very soon. The double D's (Daisy & Doris), as one of my sons called them, developed a love hate relationship. So happy family all around with the humans 'fighting" for the cats’ attention. Until that full moon night, Daisy got out and hasn't returned... yet! Doris looks at me... sad... I am sad... we all are sad and terribly upset. I put Daisy on numerous fb pages and the response was overwhelming. Soooo much love from family, friends and strangers in the community. Secretly I think Daisy knows that she is a Facebook sensation and enjoys the attention. I really want to touch on, how people rally together with love in their hearts. The support and concern which flowed our way, as I said, is overwhelming. I truly never expected this in a million years. My heart goes out even more to families who are missing a loved one... the not knowing is the bad thing. Even though I see Daisy happy and bouncy and I dream of her, I am too emotionally involved to determine if I see her on this plane or n the next. A recent dream showed me that she will return when she is older.... Do we give up hope? No Do we keep the faith? Yes To all families who are looking for a loved one not knowing where they are... my heart goes out to you. I can't even start to imagine how it feels. On this note… Never give up hope as hope keeps us going Truly appreciate all the love out there From my heart to yours. Love & Light Toni ♥  So.... here I am in front of my bathroom mirror....and all I see is my muffin top spilling over my jeans....because I had the need to fit in a so called "smaller" size.
Why do I allow a little tag with a number rule how I feel about myself? Why does that little tag hold so much power over me? Good question! Now I think about the bag of chips I ate yesterday, a small measly bag of chips where the packet contains 3/4 air. Thinking of it, who bought them anyways? Sabotaging my inner strength and to top it off, I haven't been the gym either this week! Well, saying that, going to the gym, eating no this or that and then lose a few measly inches... all in the wrong spots! Is it worth all the "pain" ? I also have good days <smiles> where I look in the mirror and go, “you rock girlfriend”...”lets go and shake that booty”. I love my clear sparkling eyes my smile and how the hair sits, well...move over Beyoncé On days like that I probably wear a bigger size jean. Back to my question. When did I allow a small tag with a number to impact on how I feel about my body? My body is wonderful and amazing. It brings me from A to B, works like a well-oiled machine, supports me, and much more Would it make a difference if I would live squeaky clean and be a size 8? Probably not! Soooo.... back to the gym, back to not eating bread (but toast is so easy in the morning!)and back to wearing a bigger size jean (for now at least) Looking in the mirror... at my sparkling, clear eyes, hair sits ok, telling myself... you ROCK no matter what girlfriend, and yep, the smile appears. Whatever size or shape.- we all ROCK... and you better believe it See you on the dancefloor called life ...shaking that booty. Love & Light Toni  Yes, I started blogging, with the gentle push to do so by Jacqui Blackmore from InnerZing.
I like writing, it is healing and helps me to get my thoughts in order... well somewhat! When I write I never read back, or edit. Even during my school years I did the same. My drafts (which we had to hand in to show that we have done some work), were never the same as the end product. The teachers never commented on this, probably because they have never read the drafts.... Writing is being in the moment, communicating my most inner thoughts and emotions. It is having me time, and how can it be the same over a period of time? As I write, I release, let go and sometimes wish and manifest. Writing is very private and personal. So why blog and share? Even if no one reads my blog, it is still healing for myself. If someone does read my blog and it resonates with their energy, makes them think, voice an opinion or even makes them feel less alone, enables them to start to heal... well that is why I write and now put it out there. HEALING Love & Light Toni ♥ Oh, to read back and edit, that is where InnerZing comes in…. I just write, some would call it automatic writing, as my thoughts and feelings flow onto the keyboard. Words...are....Powerful If you are drawn to writing something why not leave me a comment below or join me in the Facebook Angel Teachings Community. |
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