Writing HEALS... or...Toni's blog gone "wrong"

Like so many women, I too struggle with my body changes and mood swings. 

Some days I feel very aggressive... I know, you may think... No way, that doesn't sound like Toni. Let me tell you, this is VERY REAL. The Blessing (or not) may be that I am totally AWARE of how I behave. 
It is a total roller coaster of feeling happy, calm and balanced to feeling and behaving like a lunatic. Yes, bulging eyes, wild hair and flinging arms - Cruella DeVille like. 

And the weight.... The more I exercise and cut out "crap" the more weight I put on? What the?
And all the weight seems to sit around my tummy, hips and thighs.... just GRAND! 
Buying new clothes is just not on! I refuse! Do you hear me Angels and Universe? 

My affirmation at the moment is.... I do fit COMFORTABLY into my size 14 K Mart jeans (so God, the Angels and the Universe help me). Pathetic (I know) but Important for me (mad I know)

So, what's a girl to do, to feel good in herself once again?

Meditation and Reiki are the number one go to tool for me. My spiritual work always leaves me happy, balanced... content. But I can't live my life in the Spirit World with the Angels (food for thought), I am here on earth on a physical realm, to experiencing the physical. 

I felt that I need "outside" help. Soooo I started working with a Naturopath.... and.... this Lifepath #7 has to listen to advice. Not easy.... but I can do it (so God, the Angels and the Universe help me). 

Watch this space.... it should show me in my size 14 jeans very soon! 

I know it is not the clothes size that matters (there is a blog about this somewhere too), but... there is always a but... this is a great guide for me, a physical guide where I feel comfortable in my own skin. Then reality is.... I don't won't to end up like my mum.... grossly overweight, uncomfortable, ill and not able to move or tie my shoe laces by myself.... and leave this earth at a very early age (miss my mum every day, especially now).

I love myself too much for that. I don't care that people say..... You look o.k.... I DON'T FEEL O.K. 
This is all about ME MYSELF and I... and my FEELINGS.

No matter what is going on in your life, how big or small the problem is, or what you need help with,  don't be afraid or embarrassed to go get help or ask for help

Life is short, let's spend it happy. 

I think I just got side-tracked..... allowed the writing to flow....

And YES, I always see the beauty and light in people and NOT their size. 
If it comes to myself.... that is (unfortunately) still the first I see (my size... always did always have). Something I (still) need to work on, as it totally goes back to my childhood and this blog just highlighted it (again). 

Start writing.... start sharing.... and together we move forward with ease and a light heart (and body). 

YAY for AWARENESS right? :) 

Love & Light 
Toni