So.... here I am in front of my bathroom mirror....and all I see is my muffin top spilling over my jeans....because I had the need to fit in a so called "smaller" size.
Why do I allow a little tag with a number rule how I feel about myself? Why does that little tag hold so much power over me? Good question! Now I think about the bag of chips I ate yesterday, a small measly bag of chips where the packet contains 3/4 air. Thinking of it, who bought them anyways? Sabotaging my inner strength and to top it off, I haven't been the gym either this week! Well, saying that, going to the gym, eating no this or that and then lose a few measly inches... all in the wrong spots! Is it worth all the "pain" ? I also have good days <smiles> where I look in the mirror and go, “you rock girlfriend”...”lets go and shake that booty”. I love my clear sparkling eyes my smile and how the hair sits, well...move over Beyoncé On days like that I probably wear a bigger size jean. Back to my question. When did I allow a small tag with a number to impact on how I feel about my body? My body is wonderful and amazing. It brings me from A to B, works like a well-oiled machine, supports me, and much more Would it make a difference if I would live squeaky clean and be a size 8? Probably not! Soooo.... back to the gym, back to not eating bread (but toast is so easy in the morning!)and back to wearing a bigger size jean (for now at least) Looking in the mirror... at my sparkling, clear eyes, hair sits ok, telling myself... you ROCK no matter what girlfriend, and yep, the smile appears. Whatever size or shape.- we all ROCK... and you better believe it See you on the dancefloor called life ...shaking that booty. Love & Light Toni Yes, I started blogging, with the gentle push to do so by Jacqui Blackmore from InnerZing. I like writing, it is healing and helps me to get my thoughts in order... well somewhat! When I write I never read back, or edit. Even during my school years I did the same. My drafts (which we had to hand in to show that we have done some work), were never the same as the end product. The teachers never commented on this, probably because they have never read the drafts.... Writing is being in the moment, communicating my most inner thoughts and emotions. It is having me time, and how can it be the same over a period of time? As I write, I release, let go and sometimes wish and manifest. Writing is very private and personal. So why blog and share? Even if no one reads my blog, it is still healing for myself. If someone does read my blog and it resonates with their energy, makes them think, voice an opinion or even makes them feel less alone, enables them to start to heal... well that is why I write and now put it out there. HEALING Love & Light Toni ♥ Oh, to read back and edit, that is where InnerZing comes in…. I just write, some would call it automatic writing, as my thoughts and feelings flow onto the keyboard. Words...are....Powerful If you are drawn to writing something why not leave me a comment below or join me in the Facebook Angel Teachings Community. Funny how your mind sometimes works.... This morning I saw InnerZing’s (www.facebook.com/innerzing) daily message on Facebook - FEELINGS! Ha... it took me decades to allow myself to feel, mainly because of a lot of deep hurts I experienced as a child and teen. Don't get me wrong I had a great childhood... my mum was a loving Supermum. Just got side tracked.... Sooo.... my dad left Switzerland (and us) to make more of his life back in Italy, where he originally came from. He only stayed there for a few years, as things didn't work out as he imagined work wise. Sooo he left for South Africa, where he built a business from scratch...all worked out for him in the working world. 30 years later he feels the pull to move back to where he was born, to be with family. Yep, next month another big move is happening, his bags are packed, moving box is on the ship and here he is starting yet another "new" life, where he began his journey....going full circle. Sooo, where does that leave me? As I too (with my husband) packed my bags and shipped a box over the ocean all the way from Switzerland to Australia nearly 30 years ago. And yes, the older I get, the more I feel the pull to go "back" more often. Now to my thoughts... if you are still with me ... Would I have gone down the spiritual path "back home"? Or were all the experiences of making it work in a strange country with a strange language necessary? Meeting All the beautiful people I otherwise never would have met?.... Somewhere along the time-line we all made a pact to meet in sunny Australia at that in QLD and live it up. Interestingly enough my closest friends are from different parts of the world, just like us.... one day packed their bags and off they went. Sooo.... if the travel bug bites you, either to have a complete Sea Change or go for a holiday, visit a different place, even a different suburb....Go! You never know what or whom you find. I love where I live.... I am grateful for being able to visit my "home country" often..... The future is written.... but not in stone. Love & Light Toni ♥ So, I finished my last overnight shift… hallelujah :) As I stepped outside to walk to my car it drizzled a little rain which was beautiful and welcoming after a night inside under neon lights and humming analysers. Just walking along… a lady stepped beside me, asking me if I would like to share her umbrella. I declined, as I really enjoyed the drizzle on my face, but nevertheless we started up a conversation while we walked to our cars… which were parked right beside each other… smiles. This made me think of families. Yes, we do have our immediate family. We also have our friend family and then we have also our SOUL Family. You know the feeling, when you meet a stranger and you instantly feel like you know them for ever. You have an instant connection, just about reading one another’s minds. People go on about meeting their soulmate… I believe that we have many soulmates and they don’t need to be partners. Soulmates are people from our Soul family, which we encounter in our daily lives. Soulmates are the people who give us that warm fuzzy feeling, give us hope and support, make us laugh and feel happy… make us feel loved. Soulmates can be animals (as they too give us warm, fuzzy and loving feelings). So therefore we can have more than one soulmate in our lives. Stop looking for “the one”… The “one” you are looking for is the one that you makes you feel all these things. From one Soul to the other Soul Families Rock Love & Light Toni So, here we are in the 5th month of the year... May.
Suddenly life has gotten busy and eventful again. Everybody is on the go... chitter chatter is at a high and we are presented with options and choices once again, even though at times it may feel that we don't have a choice in the matter at all. This morning, after another early rise (gotta love extra shifts!), I looked up at the sky and all I saw were beautiful stars. Every single one had it's place, shining brightly. Every single star shining... together they made an amazing display of light and shape. Standing there looking up, it made me realise, that if every one of us shines brightly in our own right, together we make an amazing display of light and shape. Owning your place, owning your talents, owning your light will contribute to the bigger picture. Together we make a pretty picture. Nobody can steal your sparkle. You are the one who needs to turn it on. There is nothing better than to sparkle with fellow stars.... and YOU are a star. Tonight or early tomorrow morning look up into the sky and feel it, feel the sparkle around and inside of you Love & Light Toni Hi, my name is Toni Martin and I am the founder of Angel Teachings. A little bit about myself... 27 years ago I left my home country Switzerland (together with my husband), to call AUSTRALIA home. Moving house is never easy, moving to another continent who speaks a different language... well... challenging... but I wouldn’t change a thing. In a nutshell... the Angels brought as here (for sure)... but more about that in my book... that I may write... one day :) It brings me great joy to be able to be a “spokes person” for the Angels. My passion is to empower YOU, so you can move forward in life with a new found zest, happy heart and focus, embracing, understanding and loving who YOU are. This maybe through a reading, healing or workshop. The aim is to assist YOU, by bringing clarification, confirmation, guidance and healing. |
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